Today, I type with so much struggle and mixed emotions in my heart. I hope that I am still a fabulous woman, but just because I feel like breaking down or because I'm having a hard time does mean that I'm not fabulous, right?
My sister, Megan, and I are both adopted by our parents. We came from separate birth parents, her mom seemed to always be there when we were growing up. She didn't seem like she wanted to see her biological mother, but her mom still wrote and sent presents for her birthday and Christmas. I was the one out of us that wanted to meet my mom when we were younger. My birth mom was always in and out of my life (right now, she is partly "in"). Some years she would remember my birthday, some times she wouldn't write, or call. I was blessed enough to meet my birth mom in sixth grade as well as have such supported adoptive parents. Megan never showed any care in the world until she started to get older. She has now met her mom, a few years ago (she is a senior in high school). A few years ago, I wanted to find out about my birth dad. Some how I found him, although I am not sure because I never felt I solved that "case". He contacted my parents via phone. My sister says she remembers answering the phone a few times when a man asked for "one of her parents" and she asked them who was calling and he responded with "a friend". That was my birth dad contacting my parents after I found him. My mom said that he said he would send pictures of his family but he never did. I didn't find this out for a while, I think because he didn't want me to know.
I struggled a bit when we got married, my birth mom, her parents and grandma attended our wedding, but she did not bring her husband or two boys. I felt like I didn't really matter. All of these years, Megan's mom has been contacting her, showing her all of this love and my mom can't do that, or at least for a long period of time. I was doing ok until my sister told me that she was trying to find her dad and said that she thought she found his wife and siblings on facebook.
I wanted her to find him, because I understand how it feels. I understand to want and almost the need. Well, today she sent me an email of this family. I text her, because she didn't add any text, asking her who it was. She called me telling me it was her birth dad. She did find his family and they (with my parents consent) started talking today. I am so happy for her, I really am! But I can't help but be sad. The part that breaks my heart, too, is my husband doesn't understand, no one understands but people who have been in our shoes. My husband (Shawn) doesn't understand why we have these emotional ties to these "people" because after all, we have parents. And he is right, we do have parents, our adoptive parents will always come first to our birth parents as they raised us, choose us and supported us through our entire lives. But.. but.. our birth parents are our flesh and blood, where we literately came from.
I sound crazy to anyone who doesn't understand or isn't in our shoes. I know... But I start to ask myself all of these ridiculous questions. Why doesn't he want to see who I am today? What does he look like? Do I look like him? Does he have kids, what do they look like? Is there a reason he doesn't want to have contact with me? Would he be proud of me? Would he love me?
I love my parents (adoptive) and I know they love me, but it's still so hard. I am struggling so much today! I am happy for this great milestone my sister is going through, a new path for her, her finding out about her half siblings and biological family, but why can't this be me too? Maybe I'm jealous, jealous that her birth mom always showed her love for her, never forgot her and her dad wants some form of contact between them. But I'm mostly sad and hurt.
Chin up, right?
Stay fabulous, I'm trying.
11.15.2011
10.31.2011
Who I am
I have been thinking about my blog and how backwards I am doing this. I have name for it, I have the author for it (ME!) but I am just figuring out what material I want to use for it. At first, it was to share my ideas on being fabulous, talk about fabulous people and discuss fabulous ideas. But, I have soon realized that I know the most about myself, about my life and about my fabulous-ness--and not so fabulous-ness. So, I will add a lot of my life into this. I do not know why you are reading this, where you are in your life, how old you are or what you do for a living, but, hopefully you can learn more about me, my struggles and my accomplishments.
I would first like to say that I do not think I am better than any one, that I am rich, or that I am stuck up. I am your average girl, well kind of. :) So that you can better understand me, I will let you know some of the basics right off hand:
First name: Nicole
Marital Status: Married, as of June 18, 2011
Career: Student/Food service. I am a full-time student (major: Health and Human Services) as well as a full-time employee at a Deli/Catering business that is in the town that I live in.
Living Conditions: Excellent. My hubby (Shawn) and I brought a house a little over a year ago, two bed/two bath. As it is just us two, it is perfect. The home is older, but was remodeled right before we bought it. It is so CUTE! It over looks the river in our small town, but is on a hill. So, no flood plain for us :) This community we live in is the town in between where Shawn is from and where I am from--meeting in the middle I guess. So we are close enough to our families so we can visit, but far enough away to have our own lives.
Hobbies: I love cooking/baking. I may not be a "top chef" but I still enjoy it. I also enjoy guns. I target shoot and hunt, thanks to the introduction from Shawn. Polyvore.com is also something I love to log onto and do. Of course, my closet is the size of the average person's, but it is still fun to dream about what I would wear if it was unlimited. My newest hobby will be running. Starting this week, I am doing a couch to 5k program.
Have a fabulous evening!
I would first like to say that I do not think I am better than any one, that I am rich, or that I am stuck up. I am your average girl, well kind of. :) So that you can better understand me, I will let you know some of the basics right off hand:
First name: Nicole
Marital Status: Married, as of June 18, 2011
Career: Student/Food service. I am a full-time student (major: Health and Human Services) as well as a full-time employee at a Deli/Catering business that is in the town that I live in.
Living Conditions: Excellent. My hubby (Shawn) and I brought a house a little over a year ago, two bed/two bath. As it is just us two, it is perfect. The home is older, but was remodeled right before we bought it. It is so CUTE! It over looks the river in our small town, but is on a hill. So, no flood plain for us :) This community we live in is the town in between where Shawn is from and where I am from--meeting in the middle I guess. So we are close enough to our families so we can visit, but far enough away to have our own lives.
Hobbies: I love cooking/baking. I may not be a "top chef" but I still enjoy it. I also enjoy guns. I target shoot and hunt, thanks to the introduction from Shawn. Polyvore.com is also something I love to log onto and do. Of course, my closet is the size of the average person's, but it is still fun to dream about what I would wear if it was unlimited. My newest hobby will be running. Starting this week, I am doing a couch to 5k program.
Have a fabulous evening!
10.20.2011
We are women, hear us roar!
It has been a while since I have updated my blog. I have not shared any thoughts lately, so here they go.
I am currently working full-time as well as going to school (online) full-time. I feel like sometimes I have so much on my plate, work, homework, class participation, work deadlines, my hubby, family, friends and so on. Are we, women, working to hard? Are we putting to much on our plates?
Think about women in the past. They were housewives, they took care of the cleaning, cooking and children, while the man left the home to make the money. Now, we go out, make money, start businesses, coach others, and still come home to cook, clean and take care of the family. Our lives are filled with many roles: Chef, maid, driver, sister, coach, director, wife, decorator, teacher, therapist, mom, cheerleader, provider, daughter, and lover.
But, when it comes down to it, I love my life. Yes, my life is hectic, messy, most of the time sleepless, and crazy, but I love every minute of it. I work hard for what I want and I love the people I am around. I want to better myself and my lifestyle, so that is why I do all of the things I do. But, I can't help and try to introduce something else onto my plate. Another vegetable won't hurt, will it. ;) Women are powerful, motivated and lovely creatures, wouldn't you say? We are beautiful, hard working, sensitively-strong, individuals who are capable of anything we put our mind to! Embrace that! Learn to use it for the better!
We are women, hear us roar!
I am currently working full-time as well as going to school (online) full-time. I feel like sometimes I have so much on my plate, work, homework, class participation, work deadlines, my hubby, family, friends and so on. Are we, women, working to hard? Are we putting to much on our plates?
Think about women in the past. They were housewives, they took care of the cleaning, cooking and children, while the man left the home to make the money. Now, we go out, make money, start businesses, coach others, and still come home to cook, clean and take care of the family. Our lives are filled with many roles: Chef, maid, driver, sister, coach, director, wife, decorator, teacher, therapist, mom, cheerleader, provider, daughter, and lover.
But, when it comes down to it, I love my life. Yes, my life is hectic, messy, most of the time sleepless, and crazy, but I love every minute of it. I work hard for what I want and I love the people I am around. I want to better myself and my lifestyle, so that is why I do all of the things I do. But, I can't help and try to introduce something else onto my plate. Another vegetable won't hurt, will it. ;) Women are powerful, motivated and lovely creatures, wouldn't you say? We are beautiful, hard working, sensitively-strong, individuals who are capable of anything we put our mind to! Embrace that! Learn to use it for the better!
We are women, hear us roar!
8.23.2011
Fabulous Outfits
As I have shared on my blog before, I started Polyvore.com. I absolutely love this site! I am so excited to start of fall outfits!
Please add me:
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8.08.2011
8.01.2011
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7.20.2011
Polyvore!
Hello, all my fabulous ladies out there!
I have recently started something really fun! I have been a member of polyvore for almost a year, but have just recently started playing around on it. And let me tell you, it is so great! I love putting these fabulous outfits together, helping people out with their fashion questions, asking some too, and looking at other's great ideas!
So if you are polyvore, add me :) My name is Mrs.Davis<3
Find me and "agree" with the outfits you like!
Stay fabulous, ladies. And have fun doing it.
I have recently started something really fun! I have been a member of polyvore for almost a year, but have just recently started playing around on it. And let me tell you, it is so great! I love putting these fabulous outfits together, helping people out with their fashion questions, asking some too, and looking at other's great ideas!
So if you are polyvore, add me :) My name is Mrs.Davis<3
Find me and "agree" with the outfits you like!
Stay fabulous, ladies. And have fun doing it.
7.02.2011
Fabulous light lunch for two.
On hot summer days, sometimes eating is the last thing on your mind, but it is important for your health and metabolism to eat, even if its the last thing you want to do. But I have a nice lunch idea for you plus one that is not only good, but good for you!
Tuna Salad Sandwich:
-Two cans of tuna or one of the large cans
-2 T. Mayo or Miracle Whip (I prefer Miracle Whip)
-1 1/2 t. Sour Cream
-1-2 pinches of Dill Weed, Garlic Salt, Onion Powder
-sprinkle of Lawry's Seasoning Salt
-Dash of hot sauce
-1 T. Shredded Colby Jack Cheese (optional)
Mix together and tweak to your liking. Serve cold on bread of your choice, or stick them on bread and put them under the broiler until warm.
For a side, have a fresh spinach salad with balsamic vinaigrette and a glass of ice tea. YUM!
Stay fabulous my ladies!
Tuna Salad Sandwich:
-Two cans of tuna or one of the large cans
-2 T. Mayo or Miracle Whip (I prefer Miracle Whip)
-1 1/2 t. Sour Cream
-1-2 pinches of Dill Weed, Garlic Salt, Onion Powder
-sprinkle of Lawry's Seasoning Salt
-Dash of hot sauce
-1 T. Shredded Colby Jack Cheese (optional)
Mix together and tweak to your liking. Serve cold on bread of your choice, or stick them on bread and put them under the broiler until warm.
For a side, have a fresh spinach salad with balsamic vinaigrette and a glass of ice tea. YUM!
Stay fabulous my ladies!
6.29.2011
Being a Fabulous Wedding Guest
Summer is here, than means weddings. After just getting married about two weeks ago (Pictures will be up soon), I thought I would do a post on fabulous wedding guests.
As a bride, I know how rude and crazy some guests can be. So, here is by list of ways to be a fabulous wedding guest.
RSVP: Make sure you send it back, with your name included. Funny how most would think that it would make since to fill it out, completely, before sending it back.
FOLLOW THE ADDRESS: If a invite is addressed to you and only you, that means you and only you. The only time I think this is ok to ignore is if you are married and your other is not included. However, if you have a child and he/she is not included, find a babysitter or regretfully decline. The bride and groom often have to make cuts, but do not take that personally and simply follow their requests.
FOLLOW THE REGISTRY: If you are planning on getting a gift instead of giving them a card with money, please, please, please follow the registry. Many couples spend hours picking out gifts that they want. If you are tight with money or want to pick something that you like, make sure you do it early so you have the chance to spend the amount you want and get them something you would have like to get them if you went off the registry.If you choose a large gift, talk to the couple to see if they prefer it to be at the reception or sent to their home. If bought online, it might be easier to have it sent to them.
BE ON TIME: Try to be there twenty minutes early so that you can be ushered to your seat. Nothing is more annoying than the bride and groom having to wait to start the wedding because of late guests.
DRESS APPROPRIATELY: Number one rule, do NOT wear white or another shade of white. As I hope you already know this but pay attention to the dress code. Floor length dress? Black pants? Sundress? Short-sleeve polo?
STAY OUT OF THE PHOTOGRAPHERS WAY: My grandmother, love her to death, but she was in the back ground of some of our pictures because she wanted to get some shoots. Granted, our photographer was able to take her out, but it was not only annoying during a moment that was for me and my husband, but frustrated because there were time frames we needed to meet. If you want to take a picture of the bride and groom, do so out of the way and do not pause the photographer to do so. They are paying for their photos to get taken, and they usually aren't cheap, so try to respect that.
HAVE FUN!: As a bride, I know I was worried that not everyone would have fun. So, for the sake of the bride and grooms mind, please try to have fun (with out getting drunk.) If you do not know the family, go introduce yourself and congratulate them as well but not try to talk to long. The couple and their family have a lot of people to talk to!
I think that is all :)
Stay fabulous!
As a bride, I know how rude and crazy some guests can be. So, here is by list of ways to be a fabulous wedding guest.
RSVP: Make sure you send it back, with your name included. Funny how most would think that it would make since to fill it out, completely, before sending it back.
FOLLOW THE ADDRESS: If a invite is addressed to you and only you, that means you and only you. The only time I think this is ok to ignore is if you are married and your other is not included. However, if you have a child and he/she is not included, find a babysitter or regretfully decline. The bride and groom often have to make cuts, but do not take that personally and simply follow their requests.
FOLLOW THE REGISTRY: If you are planning on getting a gift instead of giving them a card with money, please, please, please follow the registry. Many couples spend hours picking out gifts that they want. If you are tight with money or want to pick something that you like, make sure you do it early so you have the chance to spend the amount you want and get them something you would have like to get them if you went off the registry.If you choose a large gift, talk to the couple to see if they prefer it to be at the reception or sent to their home. If bought online, it might be easier to have it sent to them.
BE ON TIME: Try to be there twenty minutes early so that you can be ushered to your seat. Nothing is more annoying than the bride and groom having to wait to start the wedding because of late guests.
DRESS APPROPRIATELY: Number one rule, do NOT wear white or another shade of white. As I hope you already know this but pay attention to the dress code. Floor length dress? Black pants? Sundress? Short-sleeve polo?
STAY OUT OF THE PHOTOGRAPHERS WAY: My grandmother, love her to death, but she was in the back ground of some of our pictures because she wanted to get some shoots. Granted, our photographer was able to take her out, but it was not only annoying during a moment that was for me and my husband, but frustrated because there were time frames we needed to meet. If you want to take a picture of the bride and groom, do so out of the way and do not pause the photographer to do so. They are paying for their photos to get taken, and they usually aren't cheap, so try to respect that.
HAVE FUN!: As a bride, I know I was worried that not everyone would have fun. So, for the sake of the bride and grooms mind, please try to have fun (with out getting drunk.) If you do not know the family, go introduce yourself and congratulate them as well but not try to talk to long. The couple and their family have a lot of people to talk to!
I think that is all :)
Stay fabulous!
5.16.2011
Pictures of Fabulous Toes
Being a fabulous girl, one has to be fabulous from head to toe. So how appropriate to have the cutest toes. As the warm weather has kind of stuck around here in Iowa, I am going to show you some great picture I have found that can inspire you for your next pedicure.
How cute are these watermelon toes?
I love the orange with white polka-dots. How fun and summery!
Next, these little lady bugs. Adorable.
You can't go wrong with a set of french tips. If the others are to 'out there' for you, you can always do a french tip with colorful design on one toe. Or if you are doing an at home one, try for summery and bright colors like purple, blue, yellow, orange, and green. My favorite at home pedicure color, right now anyway, is orange because it's so bright and cheerful.
Good luck with the beautiful toes! Stay fabulous, ladies.
***These pictures are not my own.***
***These pictures are not my own.***
5.10.2011
Staying Fabulous....In the heat
Today, in Iowa, we reached 95 degrees outside...in May. A little background on the situation, about five days ago it was 30s/40s outside and our heat is heat+humidity. I guess that is just Iowa for you, though. But, in this hot weather, you can get "not-so-fabulous" pretty quick.
I love being outdoors, kayaking, hunting, gardening, camping and so on, but I still want to look exceptionally amazing doing all of these hobbies. So, for staying fabulous in the heat, here are a few products I will review, and tips that really help me!
Stay hydrated. I do not know how many times I have read this in magazines, online, in books, and have heard it from my mother, but they are all right. With heat, and sun, your body can easily get dehydrated. By drinking lots of water your body will function better, your skin will be healthier, and you will sweat when you need to be sweating. Otherwise, the most fabulous thing you will get your hands on is a card from your sister when you are admitted into the hospital.
Oil-free skin. You're at your best friend's outdoor wedding and you look back at the pictures to find your face shinier than the chrome on the limo's wheels. My go-to-product: Neutrogena Shine Control Blotting Sheets (http://www.neutrogena.com/product/shine-control+blotting+sheets.do). These sheets absorb oils without absorbing your make-up! They come in a little 'pouch' that can slip into that stylish clutch of yours.
Facial Sunscreen. In the morning, I apply a sunscreen to my face before applying my make-up. I let it rest so that it doesn't make my skin oily when I apply foundation. Aveeno carries a facial sunscreen with an SPF 70 that I use daily (http://www.aveeno.com/suncare/cp/facial/spf70). I mix a little in with my morning moisturizer and apply. Nobody likes sunburned cheeks, or a chunk of skin removed because of skin cancer.
Mineral, Powder Foundation. I love this stuff! It is great because it is a powder that covers, yet is light and gorgeous. I use the L'Oreal Paris True Match Naturale Mineral Foundation (http://www.lorealparisusa.com/_us/_en/default.aspx#/#/?page=top{userdata//d+d//|diagnostic|main:pdp//objectid+Cos3a_1//{pdp_tab:pdp_overview//objectid+Cos3a_1//}|media:_blank|nav|overlay:_blank}). It helps absorb oils throughout the day, and doesn't feel or look caked on like liquid foundation can. Plus, the minerals are better for your skin allowing it to still breath in hot, summer days.
As the summer continues, I am sure to find more tips and products to looking and staying fabulous. So stay posted for more. Until then,
Stay Fabulous, Girls.
*I was not paid to give reviews on any of these products, or given free samples by the company to advertise for them. These reviews are solely based on my opinions.
I love being outdoors, kayaking, hunting, gardening, camping and so on, but I still want to look exceptionally amazing doing all of these hobbies. So, for staying fabulous in the heat, here are a few products I will review, and tips that really help me!
Stay hydrated. I do not know how many times I have read this in magazines, online, in books, and have heard it from my mother, but they are all right. With heat, and sun, your body can easily get dehydrated. By drinking lots of water your body will function better, your skin will be healthier, and you will sweat when you need to be sweating. Otherwise, the most fabulous thing you will get your hands on is a card from your sister when you are admitted into the hospital.
Oil-free skin. You're at your best friend's outdoor wedding and you look back at the pictures to find your face shinier than the chrome on the limo's wheels. My go-to-product: Neutrogena Shine Control Blotting Sheets (http://www.neutrogena.com/product/shine-control+blotting+sheets.do). These sheets absorb oils without absorbing your make-up! They come in a little 'pouch' that can slip into that stylish clutch of yours.
Facial Sunscreen. In the morning, I apply a sunscreen to my face before applying my make-up. I let it rest so that it doesn't make my skin oily when I apply foundation. Aveeno carries a facial sunscreen with an SPF 70 that I use daily (http://www.aveeno.com/suncare/cp/facial/spf70). I mix a little in with my morning moisturizer and apply. Nobody likes sunburned cheeks, or a chunk of skin removed because of skin cancer.
Mineral, Powder Foundation. I love this stuff! It is great because it is a powder that covers, yet is light and gorgeous. I use the L'Oreal Paris True Match Naturale Mineral Foundation (http://www.lorealparisusa.com/_us/_en/default.aspx#/#/?page=top{userdata//d+d//|diagnostic|main:pdp//objectid+Cos3a_1//{pdp_tab:pdp_overview//objectid+Cos3a_1//}|media:_blank|nav|overlay:_blank}). It helps absorb oils throughout the day, and doesn't feel or look caked on like liquid foundation can. Plus, the minerals are better for your skin allowing it to still breath in hot, summer days.
As the summer continues, I am sure to find more tips and products to looking and staying fabulous. So stay posted for more. Until then,
Stay Fabulous, Girls.
*I was not paid to give reviews on any of these products, or given free samples by the company to advertise for them. These reviews are solely based on my opinions.
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